take that Nostradamus

so i look up my horoscope for 5/11/2011...drugging day....first google hit..Venus, Mars and Mercury crowd into your shared resources center pointing the way to an exciting plot that stars you. With so much energy and creativity involved, maybe you should write the play yourself. It's sure to be a winner.

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People are hesitant to deal with deep emotional issues today. They're erecting protective barriers so the things they hear, see, and feel don't hurt them. Respect these boundaries. Do your best to stay rooted in your inner sanctuary. Try to keep a positive attitude even though the prevailing mood may be somber.

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The Sun in Gemini (at almost 1 degree) squares Neptune in Pisces at 3:31 am Sunday morning (May 22). Most of us will be asleep, of course, so one interpretation is simply an active dream life. Another possibility is that people will wake up all fuzzy brained and this could last through their commutes, so be alert out there. Neptune in hard aspects to the Sun saps our energy and clouds our judgment. Best thing is to just relax by the pool, as Neptune is quite watery and having water nearby calms and restores us. 

Venus is conjunct Mars at 8 degrees Taurus at 4:25 am Monday. NOTE This is a critical degree. You never really know what is going to happen but pay attention to the news today because whatever enters the scene will be something significant: a company's public offering, a new player in global politics, etc. Venus-Mars conjunctions in natal charts give the native high energy; in a transiting chart it favors male-female relationships. In fact you may meet a lovely Other who brightens your life, but this aspect does not BY ITSELF guarantee any long-term quality to the match (although just the fact that it is in fixed-sign Taurus does tend to help it stick around a bit). This could be the start of something big, to quote the Steve Allen song. 

Venus in Taurus is inconjunct Saturn at 10 degrees Libra at 2:47 pm Tuesday. Time to revise one's budget to reduce expenditures yet again. Adapt to what is: the economy may be getting better but not very quickly, while inflation is on the prowl. And the usual spring gouge at the gas pumps is in progress as we speak, so people just have less disposable income. (This aspect was preceded by Mercury inconjunct Saturn on Monday morning. That was just to introduce some fresh data into the equation. It is then followed by Mars inconjunct Saturn, forcing us to take actions in accordance with our new budget, and to bend our wills to our new goals.)

The Sun in Gemini is inconjunct Pluto at 6 degrees Capricorn at 10:38 am Saturday, May 28. Now you really will be stared down by the seemingly unalterable Way Things Are in your life today, but at the same time you have an opportunity to reprogram yourself for a better future. You can only change yourself, when you come right down to it. You can design your own affirmations or look up the nifty stuff available online, or visit a practitioner who does GeoTrans or related kinesiology reprogramming. 

and come to find out the world was really supposted to end on this very day...im unsure if it has anything to do with my doomsday prophecy or just a coincidence but googles fill ins for 5222011 was:end of world, joplin mo tornado and ufo....so yea it was a wack day all around

one blew that way

i may have figured out this drowsy thing after all without using illegal narcotics or breaking ones budget.  i totally had to go to Toys R Us, if i was to go there during normal business hours on christmas eves eve.i woulda started sweating even before i got into the parking lot. those parents are crazy ya'll im just pickin up some squinkies...but its open all night

so by 11 itd have thinned out.at 9pm i take a single caffeine pill(equavently to 1 coffee) cos im fading fast.  and kinda need to stay up to purchase my holiday smoke as well...so it was double the reason to

 STAY AWAKE

anywhose  it total worked!i accomplished both objectives and am still awake!i mean ill prolly go to bed here right now after this but 1230am thats somethin alright.

it could only be a total buzzkill if i get scarier nightmares and/or sleepwalk off a cliff i guess

one blew this way

that five hour energy was a complete lie.  more like "30 minutes of pep and a poop"  after that failure i decided a trinity might be a better energy approach...Psuedoephedrine, Caffeine Pill, plus 30 minutes of pep and a poop...caught a lil jitter for maybe 45 minutes my heartrate never got above 80 and i still went to bed at 11, three hours after my tripod energy attempt.  How i miss the Stacker 3 days before ephedrine killed all those people; i was not one of them. sure my heart rate was 120 for 10 years and i could never sleep on my left side cos i could feel my heart thudding in my ear drums but whatever i think it proved to be a lifesaver.  those bath salts might have really thrown the ol cardic system into a uproar if not for that 2 year work out it got in the early 21st century.

maybe im chasin a dragon here.  maybe im looking for an alertness that i will never attain.  or if i did attain that level of awake...it would be on narcotics(pishposh) or a manic episode; which for the record i am NOT bipolar .  go ahead ask my psychiatrist with the tourettes i diagnosed...he prolly calles me "clinically depressed" or a "major depressive disorder" which sounds a bit more troubling.  Major Depressive Disorder means you sleep 12 hrs a night, take only antidepressants, nap 2 hrs a day while being apathetic to any sort of encounter modern life has to offer.

however even as a child i recall thinking "i cant wait till naptime"or "is it time for bed yet?" im just always tired.  and even though all my dreams appear to be nightmares i don't even care...i wake up sweating my ass off after being chased by zombies in a junior college where i failed to turn in assignment in....where the challenger is about to explode outside...so i wake up...and go right back to sleep in the hallways and elevators and tunnels and ladders where im running from negative judgment and mediocrity(the failed assignments and zombies?)

the space shuttle bit i have no idea..but i was in the second grade and we all went into the library to watch the lift off live.  Then it explodes and the teachers like "OKAY children line up" without acknowledging what we had seen.  And were all walking down the hallway single file back to class.

"Their all dead."im saying  "they all blew up"

And thats when the teacher grabs my arm and silences me before i could make all the other 7 year olds notice we had just witnessed death.

everythings impossible

i really am lacking in story topics.  grandmas kidney stones.my sisters moving to new york.im getting super good christmas gifts; thanks to my near death experience...SOLID. a laptop and a guitar.i might go missing more often.  ok thats prolly impossible now...i can't be unreachable for more than 15 minutes before alarm bells go off...i have a track phone that i forget to pay cos it doesn't remind me so for days at a time ill wonder why no ones talking to me before i remember to pay my phone bill.  i remember life before cell phones.  if you didn't feel like talking to someone you could just say you weren't home.